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Hello my followers ! It has been like ages since I have opened this dusty pandora box of mine and I finally came back on the last hours of 2015 - year of weirdness, stuffiness, and well new enemies also got new friends too. I'm just going to be straight-forward and be honest.
This year is the worst !
\insert step-mother wicked laughs/ well, I bet lots of you had been through this kind of phase while enjoying your road to growing up and I know they said, you need to know the hardship of living through the eyes of people before you became a mature brave lady standing tall in this harsh world.
But still I, as Lavender, having the real hardship of being brave. Friends turned out to be the poisonous hiding under the face of an angel. And let's face this reality, everybody likes her so I don't have any chances but to just give up on hating her because - she is everyone's love. What is the use of hating her when nobody is on my side at all ?
Since it's almost 2016, I will just forgive her and well .. let's hope that I will forget her well you know, sick attitude behind me. Let's hope it will turns out well.
So, since this is the last year of me and guess what ? After almost 10 years of hardship in the wicked school, I could finally waited for my graduation ! Well, after 2016 ends of course. This is my senior year and yeah,
Believe me, I am a senior finally.
After this senior year, I could go out and enjoy the world as I wished for these past days. You know, sometimes being a student is not really difficult unless if you have to face the reality of exams, grades, parents and friends.
I have realised that all we need is just a patience and a smile to break through the problems in front. When the time comes, you will be comfortable to just swallow the pain and sadness down your throat since that's what the world wants you to.
The world can be quite unfair and cruel sometimes, well everytime but remember -
Be strong for the one around you, supporting you and giving you strength to stand up on your own feet. If you have been wondering, where is she or he who is around you, believe me that they are behind you - waiting for you to look back. You just need to be patience and dust off the pain away from your clothes and smile while turning back to be with them,
Sometimes, they are just in front you - smiling at you in silence.
Believe me, there are people like that. As example, me \smile shyly/
I scrolled down this website and there is a quote,
365 new days
365 new chances
I will used all of these 365 chances well, maybe 50 from it wasted ? HAHA but I promise that I will be better the next year because hey, in senior year, you have to enjoy your time being a senior especially in your high school days.
Let me just type my wishes first ;
I'm hoping for a clean and clear heart and feelings like the snow in winter. May my alarm wakes me up early every morning for trembling and exciting day and let the alarm dies when it is a horrible day. May my heart will be always open to help somebody like the constellations showing directions to people.
May the people around me next year will have a fluffy and sweet marshmallow-like heart so that there will only be warmness hugging me tightly in my hard times. Like a winter dream, may my eyes filled only with warmth.
May every word I hear from tomorrow be like silver whisper and sparkle of snow crunching - falling on the bell. May every things that happens from tomorrow be it a hard, difficult or lovely tingling day, may it makes me stay to my roots.
Everybody ! Be it a difficult or hard days, remember to be strong for them in front of you. You can't find them anywhere. Follow me,
Close your eyes and put your hand on your heart.
There they are, always in there.
Goodbye and have a blasting year ahead !
A wise man told me that holding a grudge is like letting somebody just live inside of your head rent free.{ 0 comments }