Do You Ever Know

Assalamualaikum :-)
Exam is coming near and I just only waisting my time in front of this computer. I am studying now. For real . The title was actually not a question it is a word that keep spinning in my mind. Yeah , he never know what is sacrifice about. It is his birthday in the next two weeks but he still doesn't know that I am willing to sacrifice not to eat just because I want to buy his favourite Big Bang goodies and yeah. I am thinking about not buying it. He might throw it because for him , I was his old history. Old unimportant history. I don't want to talk about this but, I have to tell somebody about this.
I have seen the real you. Yes , the one that you never showed to me in our past. I have seen who is in your heart , who is in your mind , who is infront of your eyes . I have knew it. I don't care if you love her . Just go to her but don't play with my innocent heart. You can lie to yourself but not me. You can lie to everyone but not my heart. You can keep saying that you love me but if you still look at her , I never want to believe you. It was so dark in here but you never be my side. I was very hurt but I don't want to tell you because you never cared about it. Is making me feel upset was much better than making me feel happy ?
For your information, I have never ripped your card. I have told you I did ripped it but I don't actually. Do you know I have a hard time sticking it back just because I cared about you. But you never cared about me. You just say that you love me but, where is the prove ? Everyone has been talking bad about you but I still say " he would never do that" and they just say yes because they don't want to hurt my feelings. There is someone that said something bad about you and guess what I have said. I have said that you was not like that . Fool me because I trust you.
This is the last present I am giving to you. If I still be by your side , you would never be happy. The unforgetful gift for you from me. Please wait for our last memory that will be history. You should be happy when you accept this history present. Please take care of it just like I have been take care of my feelings towards you. I have never want to do this but this is for us. The end of us. I have been giving you problems, right ?
From now on, this is our history and I would never forget about it. The end of the words. I love you .
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